How much is enough?

How much do you give?  How much is enough of you to spare, and stash secretly to enjoy when no one is around to see?  When you don’t have any more to give and people are still asking for more, what do you say? How do you make reserving the tiny morsels of which you are, that you’ve so cautiously detached from the whole pieces that you’ve so willingly given away? It’s been said that you can never give too much, but when all whom which you’ve given to, is reluctant to replenish what they have taken freely and without guilt, then where now do you take from to continue to give?In my short life span I’ve given more than I ever knew I had, never asking for anything in return and over the years, I’ve learned that, to give is a wonderful thing, to extend is a gracious and selfless, and to hold on to who you are is wise choice because rarely do you find someone whose presence simply fills you.

Dear God,

Please set me free from fear....

Thinking

Lately, i've been thinking, Every day i catch myself in a deep introspective hole digging for more to grasp out of life. recently, i found out something i was reluctant to embrace for many years,and thats my selfish ways. I am so willing to take hold of the anguish brought to those around me, although i have not yet dealt with my own. I realize now, that its so easy to tell others that you're there for them, and much more difficult to actually be there, To say you will listen, then to actually shut up and allow them to talk. To tell them not to worry, when really that all you can do. Lost in a broken generation we strive to become better people and worthy disciples of a greater power. How do we do it? Where is the road that leads us? I'm lost....and ashamed

Forgive the undeserving that includes yourself....

Allowing yourself to become wrapped up in the words of others is one of the biggest mistakes you can make. If you aren't careful you can end up carrying those words for the rest of you life and depending on the content they can help make or break you....

If you should come across a group of words designed to break you, and you find yourself hating the person who placed those words together forgive them although they may be undeserving, and forgive yourself for feeling hatred toward the person who is clearly unworthy of your time and energy, and last but not least pray for them for God alone can change their heart

Suffering...

When i see you suffer, my heart bleeds a great deal, tears of sorrow overflow within me  because i see you as a part of me. Pain does does not deserve a part in this world and not in you, we continue fight the sadness because it has partners.. not friends...but enemies. i stand with you because pain does not choose its victims knowingly it takes them, and like a virus attempts to fight the human body it can eventually kill you or damage you ....I know this because we have met many times before and i have fought against it on my own, even after years of overcome, i am still its victim and it strongest enemies     

Eyes fill with pain,

The Heavy hearts bleed sorrow

time can only heal

DAH: to you my friend...

Lonley

This girl, she lives each day with a smile on her face. Loved by her friends she is the example of a child raised right. She is happy.to all but in reality she spends her day crying in the shadows of the lives of others. She Holds grudges to the ones who hurt her and each day another person is pushed out of her life. She is unable to share her failure to her confidence because like many of the problems she has, her confidence cant solve.

one by one she rips the connection of the ones she has once cared about out of her soul. She spends her days alone because, the loves she has banished from her heart are tired of fighting her. As she toys with them she has become unaware of the fact that all that she once loved, has left her.

Soon she will be alone as she wishes, no one to share her smile and her bad jokes, no one to love her likes she wishes. The tears will fall and she will just......BE

Help me.....teach me the  art of forgiveness she cries out....but the ones sent by God him self to help and save her are gone.....what will she do now? who can help her? Is she doomed to spend eternity holding on the pain that the past has caused her using it to destroy any chance of a better and worthwhile future?

.........to be continued

Breaking Free!

unable to let go of what happened to me in the past because people today still feel the need to push and torment me.....WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT? WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU WERE BETTER? WHO PUT YOU ON TOP? .......Who didn't love you whole-heartedly? who neglected you? who left you? who hurt you? Who took away the hope that held your life together?........with sad eyes and a bruised heart i still refuse to allow you to hurt me any longer.....With all the love in my heart, i refuse to let you hurt any longer....

My Freedom from Anger and Sadness.....