Suffering...

When i see you suffer, my heart bleeds a great deal, tears of sorrow overflow within me  because i see you as a part of me. Pain does does not deserve a part in this world and not in you, we continue fight the sadness because it has partners.. not friends...but enemies. i stand with you because pain does not choose its victims knowingly it takes them, and like a virus attempts to fight the human body it can eventually kill you or damage you ....I know this because we have met many times before and i have fought against it on my own, even after years of overcome, i am still its victim and it strongest enemies     

Eyes fill with pain,

The Heavy hearts bleed sorrow

time can only heal

DAH: to you my friend...

Lonley

This girl, she lives each day with a smile on her face. Loved by her friends she is the example of a child raised right. She is happy.to all but in reality she spends her day crying in the shadows of the lives of others. She Holds grudges to the ones who hurt her and each day another person is pushed out of her life. She is unable to share her failure to her confidence because like many of the problems she has, her confidence cant solve.

one by one she rips the connection of the ones she has once cared about out of her soul. She spends her days alone because, the loves she has banished from her heart are tired of fighting her. As she toys with them she has become unaware of the fact that all that she once loved, has left her.

Soon she will be alone as she wishes, no one to share her smile and her bad jokes, no one to love her likes she wishes. The tears will fall and she will just......BE

Help me.....teach me the  art of forgiveness she cries out....but the ones sent by God him self to help and save her are gone.....what will she do now? who can help her? Is she doomed to spend eternity holding on the pain that the past has caused her using it to destroy any chance of a better and worthwhile future?

.........to be continued

Breaking Free!

unable to let go of what happened to me in the past because people today still feel the need to push and torment me.....WHO GAVE YOU THE RIGHT? WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU WERE BETTER? WHO PUT YOU ON TOP? .......Who didn't love you whole-heartedly? who neglected you? who left you? who hurt you? Who took away the hope that held your life together?........with sad eyes and a bruised heart i still refuse to allow you to hurt me any longer.....With all the love in my heart, i refuse to let you hurt any longer....

My Freedom from Anger and Sadness.....

LOVE

LOVE......A four letter word used to lift the hopes of people who depend on thought about the future to hold them through the day. People who spend most of their time dreaming about waking up and having a person next to them who is full of  LOVE is for People who dream for the perfect story to rub in the faces of others and prove that this WORD we spend most of our lives creating in our minds and searching for the rest of the time.....LOVE is this word that is herd and seen as the answers to all of our hopes and dreams when it is only .....small moments constructed by emotions and sent to the heart hiding the empty space marked .....UNHAPPY

What is beauty..?

What is Beauty?
    Is it truly defined by thoes little round dots on the different spots of your body?
    Is it Asian Eyes?
    Black girls lips?
    Latina hair?
    white girls skin?
     Black girls butt?
     WTF
 We continue to define ourselves by the colors and looks of other women. whats up with that? Why are we so unhappy with the gifts given to get us where we are suppose to be in life?

How do accept what we have been given?

Dear women,
    You are beautiful, from your short hair to thick thighs from your pale skin to your big feet maybe afros and a few weird teeth from  your tummies and your back rolls from your spots and you eyes and as far as boobs go YOU ARE COOL cause you breath and you live and you feel the need to give you true effort into everything you do you should ENJOY being you,....because you are soooo BEAUTIFUL!

Stereotypes don't define beauty.....you do!

think.....

IF she says trust me....
i love you...
your my best friend...
your the coolest person i know when you know you are....
if she falls in love with you and continues the friendship even when you dont feel the same..
if she calls and you know your boring...
if she cares....

Then think before you do something stupid like ruin your friendship for ever........i feel terrible

Chris Brown - All Back (Fame Album Version) HD

All back....

Chris Brown made a song call all back which inspired this post....


There are things i give up everyday and, when i let them go i realize i should have kept them and protected them with my life. Once you give them away you may never have the chance to see them again...so keep the things you charrish close to heart because there is a reason you feel that way about them......

My love.....I've loved you since the 1st day you acknowledge that i existed and then told the world how wonderful you thought i was.....I am scared........one day you will know who you are......

Today....

The things i do everyday continue to get harder.....time is  not on my side, slowly suffacating into a time tainted to the tips of its eternal endings. time its just not on my side.....

Sooooo.....

I think this girl is beautiful....she like someone else and i don't like women......things always happen this way.

YouTube - Coldplay - Clocks

YouTube - Coldplay - Clocks

this song relaxes my nerves

4 DAYS OF RANDOM HAPPINESS!

Day 4 Today...

I stood up for myself today,
it felt so great to feel empowered!!!.....

4 DAYS OF RANDOM HAPPINESS!

Day 3....



Eat something healthy and enjoy something guilty(food lol).....

4 DAYS OF RANDOM HAPPINESS!

Day 2.....

Don't worry about anyone not even yourself just be in existence....  :) (how hard is that right?)

4 DAYS OF RANDOM HAPPINESS!

Day 1.......

I will tell the guy i like that i like him because i do!

Wish me luck!!!!

Today....

Today am content, I am pleased, i am hurting and i am healed, i am a secret and i am a shadow. I saw you, today i saw you and we spoke, we shared my silence and my space, now we are friends, we are fictional lovers, we are the words of Shakespeare, away, you leave and once again i am but a lonely soul in the shadows of the scariest nightmare. Warrior..... please come to me..

Adele Is Brilliant her voice is a healer!

Something new

You once held my weak heart, you mended it and slightly cracked to make me believe that only you could rightfully repair what was not yours, mine, the rain came to put out your blazing flames but instead it sent them into a constant uproar until an old pile of raw ashes set in the place where our love stood, Afraid and alone i felt until the phoenix of what was once great became reborn and instantly i was set free.....

Never Letting Go

Holding on to what i know, these things i see the grab me and pull me to each ends of eternity,  and i  cant break free, I am but a lonely feather floating in a harsh reality catching wind and sailing into unknown territory
your heart....

New

This is my 1st blog...


Clean me, brush over me and extract the things that are bringing me down. I am lost, Find me and take me home. I am in danger, save me, love me, hold me, console me, enroll me in to your life schedule and grow me like flowers in the spring. Heal my scars and make me new i am a part of you.

*To My Lady*